A fish needs oceans daily to survive.”
It’s this endless longing for God’s presence, for God’s company, for His guidance, love and light. But, the question always remains, am I on the Right Path seeking this connection? Am I walking in His light? I am not great on rituals… And, I recently grew poor tolerance to “silence”… I am always doing and doing and doing some more… and, if I am not studying, working, reading, or performing chores, I am too tired “to embrace the silence”… that’s so strange… Is silence that tiresome? How can this be?
Maybe because silence forces us to face our raw feelings, our bare soul… It is scary… and exhausting. This is why we are in constant need to fill our brain with non-sense… as if we fear the voice of the reed… the whispers of our aching souls… Am I avoiding it, or is it avoiding me?
Maybe this daily reflection will force me to slow down… I should be careful not to turn it into another “research project” or another task that needs to be fulfilled. It is my own soul search… the digging and excavation of the soul seeking connection… seeking to quench this everlasting thirst that seems unquenchable at times.